you are the most remarkable

boy I ever

met, all the more so because

you don’t care for that title

unlike the vain brats about whom

we laugh

our connection goes deeper

than anything and I still

love you

past idiots deemed them-

selves important, but

7 years was like

nothing, and I was over them

within a month

you, on the other hand

how fascinating can

a person

be, I’ve never

desired someone so

wholly so much

see, past idiots thought

I was so smitten by them when

it was them who expected that

and demanded that

and imagined that

all the time

reinforced by their pathetic father’s

warning gaze: you’re part of the family

as long as you worship us

I wasn’t welcome, I was threatened

by people who don’t know anything

beside themselves

and who are not capable

of love

but they patted each other

on the back drunk

with smugness and

self-righteousness like the

terrible Christians

they were | that way

sustaining their limited

loop

of validation

but as we know the key

to joy is disobedience and under

that pressure to align

my desires I was set

to stray even

if I wasn’t aware

admiring the other men, those

beautiful, witty, sexy ones

along my way

and I kissed the lips of

many that sparked more in me than him

but when I met you

that need fell away

I don’t say that because it has to

or because that’s proof

of anything

I just tell it like it is

and now that I don’t need to

want anyone, I still

am yours

in the distance

through the distance

despite the

distance I am

yours

or rather: I am

with you

without control

we simply are

connected, entangled

and it doesn’t need be more than that

because it is

meaningful

and this means

everything