my lips are burning
and I can feel my tears but they are not running
they are always just coming

I „forget“ to take my meds
for like 4 days

I download ballet apps (3)

we search for an entry into a castle
and finally a man with a dog unlocks the door
we dance in the second floor for hours

I know when I wake up
this is the first I should do:
swallow my pills

it is oh so simple
it is way too complicated

sometimes I just want to be held
and be able to cry
at the same time

I feel a difussion
I still can’t believe
this is how the story goes

I take my meds
I miss my tears