you should like hold me really hard
and fix me with your hands and eyes
so that I can stop spiraling

sometimes I just eat
to vomit like the world is
how disgusting men are

I would love to take you into my brain
so you could feel everything I feel
and know everything I know

and then maybe you would understand
what it all means to me
but you are not even able
to hold me like hard enough

so why would you

I am standing at the bar
trying to fix my bra
which is like all wrong
and some dude is starring at me
and then grinning

and I feel like
vomiting all over him