I select a new desk one which I can make disappear
for my room I need space space space
I want to

since I saw the substance I have an urge
to do gymnastics and watch fitness youtube videos
and dress in a gym outfit as well
(I do not think that was the message
but here I am searching for leg workouts)

I am telling ppl
I am done
I am writing one last to do list for 2024

my throat is hell
is where all my pain gathers

as I buy the desk with one click
flickers a memory from when one
guy who said he loved me loved
shopping furniture and then stopped
loving this and anything at all
because the furniture house was
pro vaccinations throughout the pandemic

I am forgetting the small things that changed
before the big things flew through our rooms

I would never choose to remember
but sometimes it is just here

again and again and