Kategorie: Autor:innen
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Bedingungen
Einer von euch beiden erzählt über das Grinsen auf euren Lippen, wenn mein Name von ihnen fällt. Der Andere spricht von Lügen. Einer von euch erzählt mir die Geschichte, ich kann die Lügen nicht erkennen. Einer von euch beiden legt eine Linie der andere einen Kreis. Einer von euch spricht immer mit der Tür, die…
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Aus dir
Ob wir vor 70 Jahren schon in der Psychiatrie gelandet werden, frage ich dich. Das geführte Gespräch verschwindet im Nichts. Alles was nicht aus dir kommt ist Staub. Du schreibst vomit. Ich sage Es ist gut, dass es da steht. Wir lecken uns die Wangen. Alles aus dir ist Glitzer.
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of course I believe you
when I was 10 years old I likedlistening to Power of love total eclipse of my heartor the winner takes it allspinning in circlesthrough the living room you seeif you open yourself upwhich also meansif you break for others to seeand tell them what has happened they will not say anymoreit was your own faultthey…
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continue to vomit into the void
I have lost my throatevery time I try to swallow or speakthere is nothingness there are folds in my grey blanketthat don’t go awayeven if I stroke firmly the nothingness is hungryevery time I think about the things that happenedshe grows like my offenders maybe I will loose my esophagus nextor my teeth if I…
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history of violence
I only know violence in Germanso I it seems I can escape in any other language you seeeverything that happened to meevery word engraved under my skinist dabut not here but it is exhaustinglike I have turned up the heator unlocked a new levelin processing what has happened it wasn’tjust a feeling es war ja…
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a pathetic message about meaning under a stone
I took the nightjet to Paristo fuck a person I met on feeldit was as importantas visiting de Beauvoirs and Sartres grave to fuck a strangerwhile holding my girlfriends hand I cried in front of the grave stonein the heat of the summerafter following google maps for seemingly hoursit had 35,6 degreeand I was sorefrom…
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I know now I am just a wrong person
That I’d rather not tell youanymore about the behaviour of our colleaguesbecause I am afraidthat you will not be ableto draw consequences for their behaviourso maybe it is betterfor our friendshipif you do not knowwhat they are capable ofso that I can still believethat you would be by my sideif you just would have known…
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this is how I have skin in the game
I do not believe in menas a conceptwho came up with them& with underwired bras I start pullingthe skinoff my fingernailsas soon as I’m finished with the nail polishthis is howI have skin in the game A would sayI have a lot of outerbody experiences somehow violent behaviourreminds me of outer space my fingers are…
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freedom
I don’t feel good about it – but there’s no other way, I do it for the money. But you hate yourself for it – doesn’t help, I’m doing it for the money. But you can’t sleep anymore because of it – well, I’m doing it for the money.
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Kneeling under the table at the end of the day
Man wird hier keine Erklärung verlangen I HAD EXPERIENCED ABSOLUTE FREEDOM- I HAD FELT THAT MY WAS WITHOUT BOUNDARIES (M:A) ich habe nie die Worte aber immer die Zahnseide in der Tasche weil hier immer nur die Falschen in meinem Mund liegen kalkulierte Ungereimtheiten unter meiner Zunge liegen die Träume von gestern (in denen) die…
Die gelbe Tapete 