The sleepless nights and the longing for you, an us that is no more, makes it unbearable for me right now.

I project everything.
He doesn’t understand what I am.
Neither do you, neither do I.
The triangle always passes the ball back to me and leaves me alone with it. Hands me over to my fate.

I want to let you know that I miss you, that I care about you, that the feeling of you being alone and thinking about me and not being able to understand what happened to us just makes you sad and frustrated, tears me apart. I wanted to be everything for you, but I took everything away from you, I’m slowly letting the illusion die. As if I were a master of deception who only fooled you.

But I shouldn’t think about you, imagine you, give you hope again, that only prolongs the pain.
We suffer so much, you can’t protect yourself, I’m at our mercy until it starts all over again. But I won’t let that happen again, I promise.