the last few days I lay in bed
falling in and out of sleep
binging 3 body problem and girls5eva
and if I couldn’t go back to sleep
I masturbated
fantasizing of someone choking me
or me licking a stranger’s feet
because this was easier than
thinking of the man I thought had loved me
when in reality he just
seduces women to have a collection of nudes
from contemporary artists

Do you now think all men are bad,
A asks me when I tell him this „love“ story
I do not think, I say