This text is a true-crime memoir.
This text is a project by itself.
This text is housed here.
This text chronicles my chronology of abuse.
This text is a word-by-word* rewriting of my diary.
This text uncovers eight months, or 208 days.
This text chronicles my chronology of abuse.
This text does not lie.
This text may be terminated any time.
This text does not manipulate.
This text does not identify*.
This text is mediated by words.
This text unclouds.
This text chronicles my chronology of abuse.
This text is fragmentory**.
This text may hurt.
This text is not the full story.
This text has no date (here).
This text may be boring.
This text may contain triggers.
This text chronicles my chronology of abuse.
This text is by a survivor.
This text speaks English and German.
This text already is.
This text wants company.
This text wants out. 
This text is a vow. 
This text does not seek love.
This text does not want empathy.
This text does not want compassion.
This text does not have any healing powers.
This text chronicles my chronology of abuse.
This text was lonely.
This text was ashamed.
This text is a chronology of shame
because shame is the reason 
for why not even this text is able 
to tell the truth
about myself
in its 208 days.

^{* I am reproducing my diary entries almost exactly as I wrote them during the time I was in an abusive relationship. Potentially identifying parts (names, places, dates, etc.) will be modified or mystified, and
** irrelevant parts will not be reproduced.}

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Text: https://diegelbetapete.com/category/autorinnen/riesuta/

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Should you find yourself in this text, the following services may be of help to you. They will be repeated at the bottom of every entry. Please note that most of them are based in Austria.

• Frauenhelpline gegen Gewalt | https://www.frauenhelpline.at/ | 0800/222-555
• Frauenhaus Notruf | https://www.frauenhaeuser.at/get-help/im-notfall/ | 0800/20-20-17
• PsyNot | https://psynot-stmk.at/ | 0800/44-99-33
• Polizei | 133
• European Emergency Service | 112
• Silent emergency app | https://www.dec112.at/en/app/