Kategorie: riesuta
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chronology of shame | #55
Context: https://diegelbetapete.com/2026/08/17/chronlogy-of-shame-pretext/ … Ich war draußen! Ich habe meine anxiety calming-Strategie angewandt und bin durch den Park zum Supermarkt einkaufen gegangen. Sonst werde ich ehute noch rasten und morgen klappt ja vielleicht ein weiterer Einkauf :) ||
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chronology of shame | #54
Context: https://diegelbetapete.com/2026/08/17/chronlogy-of-shame-pretext/ Ich bin mit einem guten, positiven Gefühl aufgewacht, aber merke nun, dass sich Schuldgefühle dazu gebreitet haben. Aufgekommen sind sie, als ich an die guten Zeiten mit ihm gedacht habe und dann Fotos von ihm angesehen habe, auf denen er glücklich ist… Ist diese Person wirklich dieselbe, die in mir über Monate hinweg den…
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chronology of shame | #53
Context: https://diegelbetapete.com/2026/08/17/chronlogy-of-shame-pretext/ It is over. It doesn’t feel entirely over yet. I do not trust the silence – yet. It will take a few days, maybe 2, 3 weeks, until I will feel relaxed again. But the change has been set into motion. I will never be with this person again. I am a survivor of…
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chronology of shame | #52
Context: https://diegelbetapete.com/2026/08/17/chronlogy-of-shame-pretext/ [notes on a webinar on emotions] * Gefühle haben Botschaften! Sind nicht ohne Grund da. Oft sind Gefühle damit in Verbindung, dass ich in meinem Außen etwas ändern darf! → es gibt keine falsche Entscheidung! Entscheidung aus bestem Wissen und Gewissen. * Ich süpre Nervosität → Angst/Stress bei jedem plötzlichen Geräusch in der Wohnung……
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chronology of shame | #51
Context: https://diegelbetapete.com/2026/08/17/chronlogy-of-shame-pretext/ I don’t want to and I can’t go back, there is no unknowing. The only way is forward. As frustrating as it may be, as much work it may be. As [author/psychologist] says: Living as a human being is fucking great. It is awesome. I want to experience that – not just on the…
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chronology of shame | #50
Context: https://diegelbetapete.com/2026/08/17/chronlogy-of-shame-pretext/ X was good and I am writing this as I am on the way back to Y. I wanted to write „back home“ initially – but then I stalled… The people I choose to meet at the point of destination – they are home. Y, Z, him. I can’t wait to see him again.…
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chronology of shame | #49
Context: https://diegelbetapete.com/2026/08/17/chronlogy-of-shame-pretext/ I think I have disorganized attachment style, a variant of insecure attachment styles that combines anxious and avoidant, resulting in illogical actions and reactions that lack cohesion and logical reasoning. To my partner this can be very confusing because I do not follow a clear path, nothing predictable. Also, I can vary between anxious…
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chronology of shame | #48
Context: https://diegelbetapete.com/2026/08/17/chronlogy-of-shame-pretext/ This is the first time I am away on my own since we said we are a couple. I do feel a little tight ‚cause you haven’t replied in over 12 hrs but then you are as free to do whatever you like as I. I know that you can sleep forever if there’s…
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chronology of shame | #47
Context: https://diegelbetapete.com/2026/08/17/chronlogy-of-shame-pretext/ … Yesterday, when we resolved a conflict, I felt as peaceful as I had never felt in my entire life. I asked him what this feeling was and he said, that’s how it feels to resolve something. He feels this all the time. In the evening, I could not relax. I was constantly on…
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chronology of shame | #45
Context: https://diegelbetapete.com/2026/08/17/chronlogy-of-shame-pretext/ I can’t remember a day in my life on which I had felt as happy with my regular life as today. A day on which I do not wish myself anywhere else, on which I do not want to turn back time or turn it forward, on which I don’t want to wear something…
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