Context: https://diegelbetapete.com/2026/08/17/chronlogy-of-shame-pretext/

Yesterday was fun and a mess. We went to the movies, saw a film about X and talked about trying that ourselves some time. Back home, he asked me if I had an idea already and I thought I had… but soon I was lost, didn’t know what to do until he stopped it at some point. I didn’t notice the distress my failure caused and we got into quite an argument that lasted about 3 hours. I feel embarrassed. Whenever I am in panic mode, my brain goes all dumb and I do not understand anything. Nothing. It’s like I’m living in a different universe. I have to read up on X. I think we can enjoy that but I am lost at what it actually means and what makes it different from Y.

My throat is almost healed.
My Z hurts.
I long for my health.

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