Context: https://diegelbetapete.com/2026/08/17/chronlogy-of-shame-pretext/

Journaling

Before falling asleep yesterday, I kept repeating the learnings. I kept feeling that they will make a difference. I hadn’t felt that as deeply as yesterday before. I agree with all the standards, all the maximes. Yes, making mistakes is the only way to advance. Yes, listening truly and excitedly to the people around you is the only way to lead meaningful conversations. Yes, leaning in if you hurt someone is the only way to create rapport, show understanding and truly experience love. I have lived my life in distance, from a distance, because I was too afraid to get hurt. But I am safe now. And what I truly desire is love, closeness, passion, meaningful sharing, true rapport, and to advance my own personality by actually listening, feeling, and becoming more than just me. I can be more than my emotional, trigger-driven self.

Improve today:

Today, I want to be aware of my mistakes and admit them when I make them. I want to be able to pause, and say, oh, that was wrong, I am sorry that I did xx, what can I do for you? Or: oh, that was wrong, I am sorry that I did xx, let me make this right (If it’s a little more clear what went wrong). I want to be proud of recognizing and admitting to my flaws. I will make myself vulnerable, but I will also make myself human.

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